Skin Deep

This is something I've wanted to tackle for a while but never really knew how to handle or how to approach it. I had all these struggles mainly because this is such a sensitive topic and I'm sure there are people who will read and be of the view that I'm not allowed to say these things because I "don't know what it's like". I'm speaking on self esteem, confidence and body issues.

Growing up, I was deemed less than attractive. There are no two ways about it. I did not live up to the standard of beauty that existed back then (and probably even now). Pretty girls were petite and light skinned with long hair and a straight nose. I....was none of those things. I was a tragic 90 lbs with acne, a full head of thick natural hair and glasses. So of course, I was teased because my peers were just as cruel as all other school children can be.

I used to be called "Grater Face" among other things. I remember this because I was one of the few girls in my class who had started going through puberty at an early age and my skin was a wreck. I got my first period at 10 years old and it seemed like everything just went downhill from there. Looking back at it, I was what one would call a "hot ass mess". There were days when I would wish to be pretty and light skinned like some of the girls all the boys liked - but of course this never happened. I remember I had a crush on a guy and I got the most public shoot down one could get. Yikes.

My mother would always stress how important it was to take my head out of the clouds and bury it in the books. Taking her advice got me several years of straight A's, multiple academic awards and the faculty acknowledged me as a star student. I was involved in everything: 4H, Brownies, Speech and Drama, Choir, Spelling Bee, Builder's Club, Dance. I even tried out for track and netball - bear in mind that I don't have an athletic bone in my body so...yeah.

When I was about 14, my skin started clearing up (I used so many products and tried so many remedies, I don't know how my face didn't just melt right off. Ick.) but I still wasn't beautiful to some. Why? I was TOO skinny. My face was TOO oblong shaped. I was TOO black. My nose was TOO big.

At 17, I started gaining weight. I grew breasts (yay, tits) and got what some would call a butt. A new dose of weight gain and transition started when I was around 19. Then it came in another burst at 21 then again at 22 and my body has continued to change up to now. I feel sad that growing up, I never felt beautiful because I measured beauty based on other people's standards and not my own. Even up to this day, I still get tackled about my weight and to my surprise, there are even people who have called me fat (yeah, me. Fat. Who saw THAT coming? Talk di chute weh God love!)

I was so sold on skinny being a negative thing that I tried all I could to gain weight. Then when I did, people had something to say. So I lost it. They still had something to say. Then I gained and guess what? They. Still. Had. Something. To. Say. I grew to understand that no matter what, PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, it's just up to you to decide how their words and actions will affect you.I was always so devastated and worried about what people thought of me and my looks. Then one day, I decided I didn't want to feel like that anymore and so I changed my approach. I tried to find the positive in these negatives.

"Oh, you're so skinny!"
"Yep. So I can fit into everything"

"Your hair is way too thick"
"Yeah, I broke a few combs but these strands never fall out"

"Your life is showing on your skin"
"At least I'm living"

"You're getting fat"
"I'm well fed so I guess it's showing now"

Looking back and learning all I did, I wish I had let these things roll off my back sooner. I have learned to love myself as a Black woman and most importantly as a person. It took me YEARS to get to this place in my life that I'm at and it's something I wish for other people (not just women) who are struggling with themselves and society's standards. You are beautiful. You are more than your skin tone. More than your hair texture. More than your good/bad skin. I had to learn that confidence comes from within and self acceptance is the first step to self love.

Help people. Breathe deeply. Smile more. Be positive. Speak your truth. Keep your head up. Love the world. Never have doubts. Embrace what you can't change. Be gentle with yourself.

Namaste.

Ward 21 Wraps Up European Tour To Promote New Album

From the 90s up to now, Ward 21 has been churning out hit after hit and has blessed the ears of Dancehall fans worldwide with great music. The trio recently wrapped a 16 show European tour dubbed “Still Disturbed”, a tour like no other. Ward 21’s Kunley McCarthy gave a taste of why Still Disturbed was so different from all others by highlighting the purpose was to bring attention to their newest album, “Still Disturbed”. “Usually we tour as artistes giving a concert based on past hits and any new material we have to offer which is usually always fun but because of the album’s release, the fans seemed a lot more eager so the energy was at a fever pitch right through to the end.”

The group also took another act on the road with them for this tour, Marcy Chin – a young Dancehall artiste who they say took every step as a learning experience and fit right in just like “one of the guys”. Ward 21 has been doing great things since they first stepped on the scene and now they are helping to grow Dancehall by witnessing and aiding in the growth of other performers.

​The name “Still Disturbed” is an ode to Ward 21’s very first album which was entitled 'Mentally Disturbed’. It also speaks to the fact that even after 16 years in the business as artistes and changes in musical style, they are still producing great music and will never disappoint their fans.

The 'Still Disturbed' album will be launched in Jamaica and promoted in the region by later this year which will keep them steady on their musical campaign to do their part in returning the root sound of dancehall music. Kunley McCarthy says “Music evolves but we are seeing the identity and quality fall because the original sound is slowly fading away to a point where, without the heavy Jamaican accents of the artistes, it doesn’t even sound Jamaican anymore. We will continue touring the world and flying Jamaica's flag with AUTHENTIC dancehall and reggae music as long as we have life.​”

​Ward 21 and the “Still Disturbed” album will be promoting Jamaican sounding music and as always, giving upcoming artistes a chance ​to seize their opportunity in the music business.

Marcy Chin A Hit With Fans On The Still Disturbed Tour

Fresh faced Dancehall artiste Marcy Chin is at it again! The BadaBadaGang member recently wrapped up an energy filled European tour with Dancehall veterans Ward 21. You may remember Chin when she blew up the airwaves with hits like “Body Able”, “When Again” – a remake of Tiger’s “When” and “Bunx Up” with Dee Wunn. Now back in Jamaica, Chin gives us a peek into her summer performances in Europe by describing it as “a wicked experience” and that it made her realize how much she enjoys performing. “I conquered all my fears and did my thing. [As a first timer], I was taken aback. The reception was pretty good. The audiences were very involved in my performances and they even called me on for encore.”

“Still Disturbed”, the 16 show tour began in Poland in July and saw Chin performing live on stage with Ward 21 in countries like Austria, Switzerland, Germany and France. While she expressed that every stop was equally as fun and helped her to grow as an artiste, she admits that her most memorable tour moment was celebrating her birthday under the Italian sun. The tour also brought positive vibes into Chin’s personal life as she had both her father and brother come out to see her perform when she took the stage in London. The tour wrapped in Bratislava in August but if we know Marcy Chin, we know that will not be the last stop for her. “I’m very driven and passionate about music so I’m always working; whether it’s writing or putting a song together so I have things that I’ll be sharing with my fans very soon. I am back in the studio working on another mixtape and a few more singles to be released.” Stay tuned!

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/marcychinmusic?ref=hl

Instagram: http://instagram.com/marcychinadoll

Twitter: https://twitter.com/marcychinadoll

Mental Illness - Bridging the Gap

Following on the heels of an article written by Brandon Allwood, a Jamaican student at York University in Toronto, I feel that it has become increasingly necessary to join in the fight to break the stigma attached to an issue affecting numerous people in the world today: Mental Illness.

Mental illness is any disease or condition that 
influences the way a person thinks, feels, behaves, 
and/or relates to others and to his or her 
surroundings. Although the symptoms of 
mental illness can range from mild to 
severe and are different depending on 
the type of mental illness, a person 
with an untreated mental illness 
often is unable to cope with life's 
daily routines and demands. (Source: http://www.medicinenet.com/mental_illness/article.htm)

It is something that must be brought into the light and seen for what it truly is - a legitimate medical condition. Mental illness should not be seen as something to get over, or something to be looked at with disgust and taken lightly. One does not look at someone with a seizure and tell them to walk it off. Would you dare tell a diabetic they don’t need their insulin today? So then why is it, that as a people we treat someone with a mental health disease differently?

The typical Jamaican view on mental illness forms a skewed picture with two extremes. On one end of the spectrum, there is the drug abuser in the streets begging for spare change and arguing with himself while possibly walking about aimlessly in the nude. The other extreme is the so called “perfect uptown person”, who is said to have no real problems. Mental illness knows no social class and may very well affect any person reading this article.

Let us first clarify that substance induced psychosis is real. For some people, it takes one spliff to unleash the floodgates of Schizophrenia. Similarly, it can take one negative experience to push a person beyond the brink into depression. These people are suffering and should be treated no different. Chemical imbalances in the brain fuel a physical and emotional change that needs help and intervention. It goes well beyond “getting over it”, or just being strong and moving along with your life. For people affected by mental illness, the experiences that they have are very real. For those suffering from depression, they are in physical pain and the voice they hear inside their heads speaking to them is real. So why then do we still treat mental health and illness as something trivial? It is far too easy for those unaffected - whether it be primary or second hand - to be obtuse.

Some sources indicate that 1 in 4 persons suffers from depression. Clinical depression is in no way the same as a mood of feeling down. It oftentimes involves feelings of worthlessness and guilt. For the affected person, it is a weight to endure and sadly sometimes this issue often leads to suicidal thoughts and tendencies.

Fortunately, there is hope and things can be better. The first step however needs to be a change in the collective consciousness of the people as a whole. We need to realise that mental health issues have the ability to affect every and anyone. It strikes just the same as any other physical disease - across all social classes and all ethnicities.,all communities and all religions. Don’t turn a blind eye. Anyone can be affected.

- Written by Dr. Jordan B. Eaton BSc MB, BS

Jordan Eaton is a graduate of the University of the West Indies, Mona Campus. He is a trained Medical Doctor and real life mental health patient. His condition and the condition of those like him work together to bring forth a wider understanding of this global problem. He is currently completing his internship and hopes to specialize in Psychiatry in the future.

Still Disturbed Tour - Marcy Chin and Ward 21 in Europe

Marcy Chin has been doing her thing and making waves and such all up in the Dancehall industry. From what I know, Marcy started making music from an early age so a long time she a run dis dung. She is currently on a European tour with legendary Jamaican Dancehall group Ward 21 (who has been making some of the baddest piece a track dem since 1998, me did likkle but mi memba). 

Fittingly called “Still Disturbed”, the 16-show tour kicked off on July 11 in Poland at Reggaeland (real farrin, big farrin).

From wah me a see inna di picha dem, Marcy a gwaan wid a bagga tings. Without a doubt, Europe has been great to her and I can genuinely see her love for what she does. So far, Ward 21 and Marcy Chin have done Poland, Belgium and Italy but dem nuh done! 

They're also going to places like Amsterdam, Switzerland and Germany with the final blowout show at the Bratislava Uprising Festival on August 23 in Bratislava, Slovakia.

 (Watch di goodaz a sign autograph and suh too nuh)

Sooooo, Marcy pretty much a do sky and road and continent and all a dat. Congratulations girl!
Gwaan through! Wishing you all good things!

Like Marcy Chin on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/marcychinmusic
Follow Marcy Chin on Twitter - https://twitter.com/marcychinadoll
Follow Marcy Chin on Instagram - http://instagram.com/marcychinadoll?modal=true

The Universe Looks Out For Us....And We Don't Even Know It

"Mi salt"
"Why always me?"

Sometimes bad things happen to us and the people we love and we don't know why. There has always been a saying that everything happens for a reason, even if we cannot see that reason right away.

.....You're just 3 minutes late and you miss the bus.
.....You pull out your phone too late and miss an important call that you can't return.
.....The person before you gets the last pair of shoes that you wanted.
.....You order the pork, and it done so yuh affi eat chicken.

What if we can open our eyes and see that everything is how it's supposed to be? What if we could just accept the world the way it is? They also say "what is fi yuh cyah be un fi yuh" and I believe this is true. We may not see the reason for it now but the universe is unfolding as it should and we may not gain what we want now but be sure that it is coming. There are people who have missed death just by being late or early. Or just by being in a different spot than they usually are. The universe looks out for us and we don't even know it.

That bus you were running to catch might have crashed and everyone died.....
That important call you missed may have broken your heart....
Those shoes would have probably given you sore feet anyway....
The pork woulda goodly sick yuh anyway.... (ick)

Our problem as human beings is that we want what we want and we want it now. We have no patience, no compassion. Take some time to see the world around you and trust that there is a lesson in everything. Be patient with the world and those in it. What is for you is coming.

Cheers,

Ward 21 Releases New New Ish: Patty Crumbz Riddim

Then a why Ward 21 a gwaan suh? They are at it AGAIN their newest production, “Patty Crumbz Riddim”. Now unu know mi love di caylissness right? And unu know mi love mi belly right? So once mi hear "patty" mi a go pree it. 

Patty Crumbz was released in May 2014 after three (3) months in production and features 8 tracks from the members of Badabadagang.

So.....Ward has Marcy Chin, Timberlee, LOC, CK, Point O and DeeWunn pon di ting. Mi able. So I asked, how did you guys come up with this name? Of course they said ---> “We were all eating patties one day and talking about how not to get crumbs all over the place when it was being built”. Simple simple.

Songs on the riddim include "No Means No” by Marcy Chin and Timberlee, “Spot The J” and “Feel Like” by Ward 21, “Gangsta” by Point O, “Jamdown Start Up” by DeeWunn featuring Marcy Chin, “Nuh Follow People” by LOC, “In The Air” by CK and “Mi Money” by Marcy Chin. Expect a lot more from the Badabadagang!

Check out "No Means No" here: ---> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0-qhM5a3ao

 Get the entire "Patty Crumbz" riddim here ---> http://www.sendspace.com/file/274ctz